Sunday, May 31, 2009

What Has The Lord Been Showing Me Lately?

Hmmm! He keeps leading me to Psalm 23 lately. The other day my quiet time was
1 Peter 5:7 "Casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you."
I was reading it and thinking, I've got this covered. I'm not anxious about the breast biopsy that will be delaying my trip back to Swaziland. (Although I miss everyone there terribly and feel so out of the loop.)
(Update: 2 mammograms show distortion on my left side, very small and high probability of being just calcifications but I have to have it needle biopsied. It could not be scheduled until the 8th with results not in until the 11th or 12th --I was scheduled to leave the 9th)
I'm not worried about my house not being rented yet or my finances. I figure it's all His anyway and He'll help me make it all work. But then He said "So then why can't you lie in green pastures and enjoy the still waters?" "You are worried about not having enough faith to move mountains or that you are not 'doing enough' away from Swaziland that you are refusing to rest in Me."
BAM!!!
That was God hitting the nail on my head! That's why God keeps bringing me back to the 23rd Psalm (and not to the valley of the shadow of death part)! I'm not really resting in Him while I am away. Why? 'Cause Satan is good at his job and sucked me into "holy" worrying: Need to take time to see everyone that I ever had contact with before I left for Swaziland, share my ministry with everyone I meet, get my house in order, get my house rented, make financial decisions, help my mom make decisions, grieve for my dad; so many "works" to try to fit in. None of them are bad or wrong. Not even that any should have been left undone. But there is nothing holy about worrying about getting them done. Nothing relaxing in stressing over "Am I doing everything?", "Am I doing it right?", "Am I forgetting anything?" "Should I or could I be doing more?". I allowed Satan to steal my joy of each day and each encounter.
Today's devotional was on the "Secret of contentment" which is: "Doing it because the Lord has called me and because of the love and relationship I have with Him. Whether it succeeds or fails is of no consequence to me. What is important to me is that I'm doing what the Lord has called me to do." I haven't been content, not because I'm away from hands on ministry in Swaziland but because I was not doing what God called me to do for these last several weeks; enjoying green pastures and still waters. Time to be content again!
Tomorrow, VERY early, I leave for a short cruise with my mom. We have both been lacking the enthusiasm of anticipating it. Even tried to get out of it "for the sake of the biopsy". But I think it is just what the Lord has ordered, time away from any kind of communication or normal routine. Even in our grief it is okay to laugh and celebrate an adventure. Easy to say but not so easily done. I'm ready to rest Lord until you provide my timing back to Swaziland. No more agenda. No more worrying about being the "perfect" Christian. I will rejoice and be happy that You saved me, You love me and You care about me and there is NOTHING for me to worry about!!!!! So what has the Lord been showing you lately?

Monday, May 18, 2009

My "Baby" Graduates from College

Just want to take a time out to brag on my son Michael who just graduated from Piedmont College the day before Mother's Day! He is a psychology major and planning on going to graduate school in Connecticut.
My older son, Kristopher, will finish his Master's degree and get his teaching credentials from Piedmont College this summer after I return to Swaziland. He is looking to teach high school history. (Anyone know of any openings???) I am so proud of them both.
Hear are some shots during and after the graduation. Michael is the clear head in the sea of blurs. Some of the other people in the photos are Kristopher's fiance Christina, my mom, and my son's other set of supportive grandparents. Thank you for celebrating with me!
















Monday, May 4, 2009

Happy 5th Anniversary OC!!!!

Had a great time celebrating the 5th Anniversary of The Oasis Church yesterday!! It is so exciting that our Loganville church opened a Snellville campus (neighboring community) just 3 weeks ago and already over 30 persons have excepted Christ as their Savior!! Awesome!!!!Over these past 5 years, the Oasis Church has been instrumental in thousands coming to know Christ and/or rededicating their lives to God. I am so proud to be a part of this growth by serving and ministering in Africa. Below is a video to express the last year and a half since the Oasis Church began helping in Swaziland. I look forward in anticipation of what is yet to come!!
Thanks to everyone who has been supportive in this life changing ministry to hundreds of orphaned and vulnerable children in Swaziland Africa!!! The faces in this video are not just cute kids. These are the children that will be instrumental in changing their generation in positive ways because you reached out and made a difference!! You let them know that EVERY child matters!! You are helping break down cultural and HIV barriers!! You are sharing with them that we serve an AWESOME GOD!!! (Note: The white dots and squares on foreheads are stickers from teams who have visited.)

Songs are from Chris Tomlin's "Hello Love" album: "Love" and "God of the City"