Today I am blogging more to help me process this last week. I have been confronted with how fragile life is. I found out that a week ago Saturday a dear friend's spouse died suddenly from a car accident while he was traveling out of state. In discovering this news I found out that just 3 weeks prior another friend's spouse (from the same circle of friends), who was only 39, had also died suddenly. I was in shock but was comforted in the fact that they were both Christians that loved the Lord.
But then Friday I drove up on a child who had been hit by a car. It happens far too often here. We have had many children over the years from the CarePoints who have died or been injured from collisions with cars. I won't be graphic with the details but by the time he was rushed to the hospital in the back of a truck, my thought was, "he will not make it unless God's healing hand falls on him." I don't know the child, I don't know the outcome for cetain and I doubt I will ever know.
My heart is sad but no tears come. This is the part of me that I have trouble with. I am good in a crisis. What needs to be done . . . do it. Then afterwards the rationalization of there was nothing else I could do, I can not go back and change anything, trust that God was there, He is sovereign and it is a part of life on earth. A lousy part but a part. I am hoping that in writing this the tears will come; that the softer more vulnerable side of me will surface but for now I plug on.
Even without tears, the one urgency this has all stirred up in me is eternity. I am comfortable that at any second I could die and will spend eternity in heaven. But what about others. I could not imagine seeing what I see and living what I am living without God intimately in my life. What about those who do not have that personal relationship. Not only for the day to day stuff but for the life after death, forever and ever stuff. At the end of this last week that is what is breaking my heart now. How many of you that read my blog, go through the motions but don't know Christ as your Savior? How many people do I encounter every day that could be gone in a second and spend forever in hell? Am I living a life that shines Christ, speaks Christ and reflects Christ so others can know Him? Life on earth is fragile and extremely short in the shadow of eternity.
Don't waste another second trying to do life on your own. Jesus is God's son. He is part of God, the part that came to earth and died as the ultimate sacrifice yet rose again to be seated with God in heaven. He is alive in all who believe through the Holy Spirit living within us. Without Him, life has no meaning. Without Him eternity is hell. I have never been this evangelical in my blog but it matters and I pray that it matters to you.
"God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten son that whosoever believeth in Him shall not perish but have everlasting life." John 3:16
(Postscript: Last night someone poisoned one of the 2 dogs on our property and he died. How can people have that much hate in them? It has just been a sobering week.)
1 comment:
Sandra, your blogs continue to challenge and inspire me. This reminds me of Sandziso's death and the pain around that, but also the need to rest in Christ. Your passion for Christ's glory is so evident and encouraging. Thanks for sharing while you wrestle with tough stuff.
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