Tuesday, November 15, 2011

The Future Looks Brighter!











"A wise man is full of strength, and a man of knowledge enhances his might." Proverbs 24:5
I am so excited about these fourteen 5 year olds from Mangwaneni CarePoint showing family and friends all that they learned this year and enhancing their might to change their world!
Teachers Dorah and Njabu "En-jah-boo" work hard but their caring heart for these children is what shows through at graduation. These graduates now know their alphabet, can count to 20, know their shapes and colors, and the days of the week! They know the pledges to the Bible, the Christian flag and to Swaziland. They can recite Psalms 100 and sing a variety of Siswati and English songs.

































Impressively these children have learned to speak boldly and with confidence as displayed when they shared who they were and what they wanted to be when they grow

up! (Nurses, doctors, teachers, police, soldiers and even a pilot!)
You would have no indication from the celebration the tough backgrounds many of these children have and what a difference being able to come to the CarePoint
has made in their young lives.












Let me share part of Thubelihle Matsebula's "Two-bay-lea-sleigh Maht-say-boo-lah's" story. She is the 5 year old little girl standing with me in the picture above holding her graduation certificate. She is also the one in the group picture at the top of this blog, on the front row, two in from the left with her hand playfully on her hip.
Thube as she is called, would often be locked out of the house early in the morning when her mother went to try to sell bags of chips at the bus rank and the other children would go to school. Alcohol is another ingredient in her home life. Thube was a very lonely and neglected child. When she was almost 4 the teacher spoke with Thube’s mother about getting her on medication and letting her come to the free preschool. She was able to attend the preschool class after that but teacher Dorah says that often she would hide in the cemetery and not come to class. The other kids did not like Thube because she was dirty and sickly and angry. After a couple of months, with the patient, consistent work of the teachers, Thubelihle started attending class regularly. She started playing with other children and going to medical clinic monthly and taking medication consistently.
By looking at Thubelihle at the Mangwaneni CarePoint preschool graduation, confident and happy, you would not be able to tell that when she started coming to the CarePoint, 3 years ago, that she was often found sleeping out by the road, hungry, sickly and alone. When she was almost 3 years old she started showing up at the CarePoint with her young aunts (school age) when they would attend, mainly during school break. Back then she would come mainly to eat.
If she stayed longer, you would find her just sitting on her own while other children were playing and having fun. She, along with most of her family, chronically suffer from not having a strong immune system, currently effecting at least a third of Swaziland. During this period she was not taking any consistent medication and was sick a lot of the time.
Thubelihle is like a butterfly that has come out of her cocoon. She has emerged as a strong and healthy girl. She is smart and loves to write (or copy) words. She has dreams to become a police woman. She has learned many Bible verses and knows that God loves her. She has confidence, joy and an eagerness to learn. She has hope. She has a brighter future!










Thank all of you who support Children's Cup!
The preschool is just one area of our ministries but it is making such a huge impact on not only Thubelihle, not only the children at Mangwaneni CarePoint but hundreds of children that graduated from our numerous CarePoints across Swaziland!
Giving Hope! Inspiring Dreams! Changing Worlds!

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

God Might Call Me to Africa!

Isn't it everyone's fear? . . . if I am open and fully submitted to God then He might send me to Africa!!!!
It is funny that I never thought that. I never thought I was missionary
material. I'm not an evangelist per say. I am not a nurse or a teacher. I don't have a discipleship gifting to lead bible studies for adults or children. I am compassionate but in no way am a "bleeding heart" or have the gift of mercy. My gifting is administrative. So it was never on my radar that at 47 being a divorced mom of two adult young men, that God could or would even thing of calling this geographically challenged woman to a place she had never heard of. . . Swaziland Africa.
It all started when my pastor came back from an orphanage in India. God started stirring in me the thought that maybe I could minister to kids outside the US. I guess you would say, God gave me a more global view of my life! I started thinking He might want to us me outside my little world. Then my pastor came back from Swaziland, Africa and shared about the ministry going on through Children's Cup. It sounded like they were doing a great thing.
And then . . . the still small voice came:
"I want you to go to Africa!"
I replied "Great Lord, I would love to go on another mission trip!" (years before I had gone with another church to Honduras, the only other country I have ever flown to)
"No, I want you to go and be a missionary in Africa!"
"Okay Lord, I will go on a mission trip and then we can talk about it."
Now mind you this conversation was over a period of days, not just a 5 minute talk. It was a conversation that repeated itself many times in my quiet times with God.
God finally said "No! If I say it is okay to go, then it is okay!!! You do not need to visit first. I will be with you!"
And at that point I said "Okay. I don't know how or why but okay."
This is the most out of character thing I could do. Complete surrender. I cannot tell you the peace I felt. I had no clue about what I would be doing there (turns out they needed administration on the African side of the world) or how I would be able to afford it. (I was raised Southern Baptist where they have a mission agency that covers everything). I did not know anything about the culture. I was a blank slate. (I did find it on the map and also found out that South Africa was an actual country, not the southern part of Africa!)
Was I called to Africa because I was so yielded and open to God? I don't think so. I think I was stubborn and comfortable in my regular pattern of life. I think He called me to Africa and I chose to be obedient. I had a lot (and still do) of growing to do. But when I was called to Africa, for the first time I listened to Him and not to the other voices:
"You don't know what you are getting into!"; "Who are you to be doing that!"; "You can't make it!" "You aren't capable of that!" "How can you do that?" "You are just one person!" "You are not anyone special!" "You aren't spiritual enough!"
All I remember is God saying that if He said it was okay to go, then it was okay! And it has been!
I have never regretted coming to Swaziland. In fact I considered myself so blessed to be able to serve here. Over the last couple of months, God has confirmed that He has called me to Swaziland, His grace and peace for me is here; not Zimbabwe, not Mozambique and not even in the United States anymore. At least for now. God might call me to go somewhere else down the road and hopefully I will continue to be obedient but' He hasn't yet.
Even in the light of my financial situation being cut to half of what I need to live and serve here come January, I am convinced I am supposed to be here. If I have learned anything in the 4 years I have been here, it is that God is faithful. If He says it will be okay, it WILL be okay. You don't have to fear God's plan for you! If you ignore His voice you just miss out on the many blessings beyond what you could imagine. Don't say "What? No way!" Just say YES!!! (or in Swaziland it is YEBO!)
If God is laying on your heart to help support me in 2012, please email me sandra@childrenscup.org or go to the childrenscup.org website and click on donate. If you are a member of the Oasis church, please continue to support me through designated offerings to the church. My prayer though, is that everyone who reads my blog will be open and yielded to God to say YES to whatever He is calling you to do. You won't regret it! Whether it is raking the neighbors leaves or visiting a nursing home or taking in someone who is in need, don't be afraid! The enemy makes it look bigger and more overwhelming than it really is. Work with the homeless, widows, refugees, single moms or where ever God calls you. (Don.t worry, it probably won't be Africa!) May you richly enjoy the blessings God has bestowed on you!! May you jump for joy for every new blessing you discover as you walk in obedience! I know I am!

Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Being Obedient

I don't know how to begin this. It is not what or how I wanted to present myself. I wanted to share with you my conversations with God that brought me to the mission field four years ago. I wanted to paint the picture of how God uses me here in Swaziland . I wanted to be creative and poetic and inspiring.
Did you notice the theme . . . I wanted.
God and I had a wrestling match of wills tonight and of course He won!!! It's not that I lost, it is that He showed me the root of my will was ultimately "my wants". What I really want is to serve Him in whatever manner He chooses. But He showed me "my wants" (mentioned in the beginning of this blog) were arrogant. I wanted to prove "I" was worthy. That "I" could do this blog in such a way that "I" would be thought of as clever and special. Although I am not anxious about the future (a major growth in my faith) I am still trying to do His work in my own strength. So far, this blog makes little sense to you so let me try and clarify.
As of January 2012 my funding will be cut to half of what I need to live in Swaziland. (I need $2000/month and I will only have about $1000/month starting in Jan ) I had not planned to go back to the US for a visit until June and I definitely had not planned to be raising funding.
Can God provide?Absolutely!
Can He do it without my asking for help? Of course!
But will He? I don't think so.
Because in asking, I have to say that I need help. I don't like that. I want to make it flowery. I want to disguise my need and show my worth. I don't feel comfortable in straight out asking for help. And down deep I don't want to have to be that vulnerable, that open to rejection.
That's where my wrestling match started tonight. I was still making it all about me.
But it's not about me. It is about Him. It is about me getting out of the way and letting Him use me or you or whomever to bring Him glory. I don't think I will be leaving Swaziland because I know I have not been called elsewhere. God will lay it on certain people's heart to help support me and I will be grateful and they will be blessed for their obedience even when they don't understand the why or how. I've learned a lot in serving Him in Swaziland and the most significant one is to be obedient. When I hear His voice . . . obey. To never do anything out of guilt, pressure, pleasure or any other reason but only when I know it is what God wants me to do, even if I don't understand why. God does not need me to do His work here. I am blessed that He chooses to use me. God is doing amazing things in the lives of children, youth and even the co-workers I work with here in Swaziland. I pray I have and will continue to be a vessel for Him to use; to be His hands and feet to love on, encourage and build up others. Tonight though God has made it clear to me that I have to say I need your help to stay here. It might not be how I wanted to say it. I'm sure it is not the way others will say I should say it. But I work for Emmanuel -God is with us. God is with you. God is with me. So in obedience to Him may I in true humility say . . .

"I need your help."

Thank you as always for reading my blog, loving me, praying for me and putting up with me as I work out my faith. I pray my journey helps you in yours. I know you help me in mine. I love you all and I know I am loved and blessed beyond measure!!!!
If God is calling you specifically to help me, please email me at sandra@childrenscup.org or go to chidrenscup.org and click on donate and then my name or if you belong to The Oasis Church, please send your designated donation through them as they will send it on to me. If your contribution will be on a consistent basis will you please let me know show I can include it in my budget. And regardless of if God uses you in supporting me financially; THANK YOU for supporting me with your thoughts, your prayers and your time in keeping up with the ministry God is doing in Swaziland!
"Now glory be to God! By His mighty power at work within us, He is able to accomplish infinitely more than we would ever dare to ask or hope." Ephesians 3:20